Love List

Hallo ihr Lieben,

es geht mir schon etwas besser als beim vorherigen Post. Aber ich bin immernoch erschrocken, erschuettert, nennt es wie ihr wollt.

Außerdem habe ich mich noch nicht getraut, ihm etwas zu sagen.

Aber ich moechte es tun, bevor ich wieder schlafen muss, bevor die Dunkelheit mich einholt.

Ich habe eben Shelley Mulshine's [sie ist eine wunderschoene junge Frau und ich finde sie, von dem was sie bloggt, sehr symphatisch.] Blog gelesen und dabei diesen netten Fragebogen gefunden. (:

Da er in Englisch ist, werde ich ihn auch in Englisch beantworten, weil ich ihn nicht uebersetzen wollte.

Pure Langeweile, es liegt an euch ob ihr das lest. ;)

***have fun***

Are you in a relationship? yesss.
Have you kissed anyone today? Yes, only minutes ago.♥
Where do you draw the line for cheating? That's kinda hard to say. It really depends on the situation. Giving a kiss to a friend or holding his/her hand to comfort him/her or show him/her your deep friendship is okay, I think. But kissing someone who isn't a close friend feels wrong and there is the line. Thinking romantic about another person isn't actually cheating but it would also feel wrong and hurt me if my love would do.
Are you romantic? Though it isn't easy for me, I can be, but only around my love.
How would you describe the perfect boyfriend?  well, he’s sitting on a chair 3 ft away and playing computer games…jk he just should love me the way I am and so I should. And that’s how it is.
How would you describe yourself as a girlfriend? Kind of difficult sometimes, because I’m oversensitive. But I also care a lot about him.
What’s important in a relationship? Love. Confidence. Having fun together. Giving the partner the head space he needs.
Have you ever cried in front of someone you liked? yes,unfortunately.
Have you ever played with anyones feelings? I think so, but I really can’t remember why. It’s already a few years ago, when I wasn’t even a teenager.
How many relationships have you been in? Two.
How long was your longest relationship? A little more than half a year and still everything is perfect.♥
How long was your shortest? A little more than 4 month, with my ex.
Do you want to be single or be in a relationship? Haha, in a relationship since I’m in one, but before I fell in love with my boyfriend, I always disliked relationships. Even during my first relationship.
Are you a good girlfriend? I really hope so.
Who (of the opposite sex) did you sleep next to latest? My love, of course, like every night.
How old were your parents when they became a couple? My Mother was 18 and my father 21.
Would you tattoo the name of your love? I don’t think so because it’s not his name I connect most to him.
Have you mostly been the one to dump or the one to get dumped? I only had one relationship, I was dumped by him, but afterwards he wanted me back but I kinda dumped him.
Do you hate your ex? No, I never hated him. We are friends.
Have you ever wanted to get back together with your ex? As I wrote before, I didn’t want him back. A while after I ‘dumped’ him I wanted him back as a friend.
Do you still have anything from any old relationship? I’m not sure, I think there might be some pictures on my external hard drive from that time, nothing else.
When you want someone, what do you do? This only really happened one time. I’m a little shy so I just look into his eyes and smile a little when he looks back.
Best pick-up line? ‘wanna see my bed?’ jk .. they don’t really work, I think.
What would the perfect date look like? I never really thought about that. Maybe a romatic night in pairs with movies and stuff. Or a nice party. Or just being in a park in a summernight.
Who’s the most important person of the other sex in your life? No doubt, my love.
If your boyfriend cheated on you, what would you do? I guess I would cry every night for I-don’t-know-how-much-months. I couldn’t trust him anymore, but I don’t know if I would be able to break up with him. And depending on who the person was, I would be more depressed and also hate that person for fancying the same person like me.
Do you want to get married? Why/why not? Not before I’m 18, but I really want. It’s useful, because e.g. I have the permission to see him if he is at itensive care. I think it makes a relationship more serious.
Do you want to have children? Like most girls my age I don’t. I would hate getting pregnant and I even don’t like children. I don’t feel the need to pass along my genetic material or something like that. I love what I have, I don’t want anything I need to love too.
Do you fall in love easily? Absolutely not. I only fell hard one time. Unbelieveable but true: Love at first sight.
What do you fall for? special eyes, special charism.
What’s the most non-sexy thing you know? Scruffy, fat and foolish men.
How important is it that you have things in common? Really important. How else could you get along with a person for longer time?
Have you ever had your heart broken? I could not really say this. My ex cheated on me, he told me when he dumped me, but this wasn’t that bad for me, I knew this would happen earlier or later. After I dumped him, he started a fight and was getting really mean, this hurt a lot.
How do you hit on guys? I can’t tell I’m really hitting on to someone. I try to be nice and not too shy, but mostly I act like myself.
Do you prefer a certain kind of appearance on guys? I really love longer hair. And I really dislike if the guy has a feminine figure or is too thin. If I would want a girl, I would take one, and not a man. I prefer a few muscles.
Who was your first love? My boyfriend.♥
What do you think about having sex on the first date? Whatever the person in the situation feels like. If someone just wants sex, it doesn’t matter if you have sex on the first or on the 4^th, 5^th or 6^th date.
What do you think about one night stands? It’s okay to have one night stands, if you feel like. But a relationship with love is much better than every one night stand could be.
Is love everything in life? Not everthing, but for me, the most important. I can’t imagine live without love anymore.

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Ich werde mir jetzt ein Kaesetoast machen.

Gute Nacht. ♥

Bella.