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giiiiirls please can someone explain me how to post from my phone? I really dont get it. It keeps saying I should send a mail from my blogger-email account but I cant figure out where I can log into that account or send emails.
help please? o:

and btw it my fucking 18th birthday todaaaaaaaaaaaay ! wooohooo

well yeah I'm happy about it. I'm allowed to be out all day and I'm gonna make a party for friends and family today. I'm excited. And sooooo fucking happy! I'm 18 and that means I can finally, after so many years, go with everyone when they go out, dont fear to be the one who has to leave early or something. From today on it doesnt matter anymore that I'm younger than my friends! yay!

I already have to go, wish all of you a happy valentines day if you celebrate (:

lots of love :*

Bella

ohmygod I'm to stupid to post from my phone

and thats why I havent postet yet. >_<
well I'm kinda okay with very different moods.

So I hope all of you are fine and I'll be able to read your blogs as much as possible.

To compensate my lack of posts I decided to post pictues of my body.
I took them today and I dont know what my excact weight ist because I was weighted while having breakfast and lunch still in my stomach und with clothes on. With all of that I was 64.7 kgs (142.6lbs) but the last few weeks I was between 63.3 - 63.5 kgs (139.5 - 139.9 lbs) so I guess I'm still around that.


be ready for something disgusting!

yeah well and thats it.
I'm really ashamed.



here I took a picture with cloth on.

and here I badly photoshopped what I wish to look like as a first goal.

so this were alot of pictures.
please comment so I know you didnt die from looking at them or something ^^

lots of love,
Bella <3

beginning of a new era

hey ladies,
I'm sorry I've been absent for awhile again.
Tomorrow a whole new life starts.
I'm gonna go to a clinic to cure my insomnia and depression. I was so scared of to go into therapy for too many years and now I'll go and fight and dont hide it anymore.
I still fear the whole thing and talking and everything but it's to late to worry about that, from tomorrow on I'll be there. It's an open clinic, with means I can leave the building in my free time and go home on weekends after two weeks and keep my phone.
I dont know if I'll be able to update from my phone (got a phone with internet connection a few weeks ago) but I will if its possible because I know you girls understand me.
I just sent a message to a few close friends in facebook telling them that I'm going there tomorrow... and it was so hard. I simply couldnt tell anybody because I am weak.
whatever.

I love all of you and I really hope you're all fine <3

oh sorry girls for not posting again, I was kinda busy, christmas is soon and crazy as I am I thought 'hey lets bake tons of different things as presents' and thats what I'm doin these days.
whatever, I hope everyone has fantastic holidays <3

I wanted to mention, I got Stevia now, and its really great. I tried using it in muffins with cinnamon and almonds and aww it tastes great, I only used very little but it doesnt taste strong just normally sweet. If you try it just by dipping the finger into it, its kinda strange because it's an unknown taste for me but still its great (:
I highly recommend this to anyone who is able to buy this in your country!

tomorrow we'll be at my german grandparents with my little german family eating cake in the afternoon and later we'll be at my aunts house with the italian family. And by 'we' I mean my boyfriend and me, I'm so happy he's coming with me this year (:
Every year we celebrate christmas at someone from the italian familiy's house and everyone brings some food. thats great because you can choose whatever you want and nobody can see how much you ate and everything. My mother is going to make a rice-spinach casserole which is vegetarian and which I really love. I'm gonna bring some baileys cream. Just in case you dont know what baileys is, it's Irish Cream Liquor. And I'm gonna mix it with mascarpone (super much fat) and vanilla and stuff. It tastes great, but its really a sin to eat such stuff. It'll be served with some kind of cookie, I dont know how its called in English, maybe something like ginger cookie or something.



It looks like this >>>



I'm gonna post again when I have time.

I wish all of you a wonderful christmas, and those who dont celebrate christmas, just have some wonderful days ♥

love,
Bella

just wanted to share a 'funny pic' and remind myself eating so much crap is not worth being like the girl on the left.

love,
Bella

so. much. cake!

Hey ladies <3
it's been my fathers birthday yesterday (first of december) and I went there around 3pm and only had a sandwich and a banana. I was already a little hungry since I was awake all night. But there was only goulash as normal food and cakes. So I ate 3 small pieces of cake and felt like I was rolling around but even managed to drink lemon soda afterwards. argfrhfjs why did I do this? I ate too much yesterday and I'm really not happy about that, I didnt binge or anything, just ate too much. So today will be alot better, I will make a tea after I finished this post and try to sleep a little more so I wont start munching something because I'm bored^^

I hope everyone is a step closer to their goals today! (:

love <3
Bella

need a header!

Well my lovelies, I started changing some things but I'm still not quite happy with it. I would really like to make post-backgrounds white-transparent and the text in black, but I dont know how to make the background white AND transparent. ugh /:
also, I really really need a header, with a picture. But I cant really get started because I havent decided if the name stays the same. I was never really happy with it, it was just a quick idea and I would rather have a name I like. I love my tumblr-blog name, but I cant name this one after the tumblr blog because this are completely different worlds and I dont want to be found out because there are certain people who know that I have a tumblr blog, whom I know in real life.
I guess I'm gonna go trough my music for some inspriration (maybe a quote of some song lyrics..?)

wish me luck!
and thank god I dont have chocolate here (:

love,
Bella